I haven?t been able to really sit down and think about the episode since watching it since I have been away but I still wanna write up something.

This episode started off hilarious and it just kept coming. I knew what this episode was going to be about, especially since reading the sides but when I saw Dean running for his life with the sound of hellhounds I thought he might be dreaming. I mean we all know he?s been having nightmares about hell and he remembers being torn up so I thought that maybe he was dreaming about hellhounds chasing him. I burst out laughing when I saw the dog with a pink bow. THAT was ? well that was just priceless. My poor, poor baby lol It set the episode up perfectly

I was appropriately disgusted and giggling when Sam got squirted with the yucky spleen juice lol Oh and the Coroner? He was in Stargate once and I?m sure he?s been the in the X-Files before right? Anyways. I loved that scene. And If I miss important bits I?m doing this after one proper viewing and I?m trying to get my thoughts down now so I have time for other stuff I need to catch up on lol

The snake? I have held a snake before but seriously those bastards creep me the hell out. So Dean freaking out, ghosts sickness or not I could totally sympathise with. Don?t like them and I once made my brother and Dad leave a nature park less than 5 minutes of walking down the track because one slivered across the track in front of us lol

I still love watching Dean totally getting into his eye of the tiger in the car and I was doing a lot of smiling as he jumped when Sam knocked on the top of the roof and my eyebrows rose along with Sam?s when he sniffed the donuts and just chucked them on the seat. The whole ?Dicks? dialogue and the total brotherly way that was played out had me giggling. But what got me most about this episode was as the Ghost Sickness started to take hold Dean seemed more and more like a 5 year old boy and OMG how adorable is that. I think I wanted to hug and squeeze him throughout this whole episode. The way he admitted that he was waiting in the car because their room was on the forth floor ? and it was ?high? OMG he?s so freaking adorable.

One thing I have to say about this episode is that Sam really stepped up in this one. What really stood out for me were moments like when he came back to the room just before Dean brought up the woodchip and he sat down and kicked Dean?s foot and told him not to pick at the scratches and when they went to see Luther?s brother and Dean was freaking out about the ID?s and he told him to take a deep breath and then asked him if it helped and Dean shook his head and looked at him with those big trusting green eyes *dies* and then followed by them walking with Sam ?s hand on Dean?s back again warning Dean not to scratch. To me? In this episode Sam stepped up and seemed like the older brother and its so rare to see this. Sam so calm and confident and looking after his brother every step of the way. The way he handled Dean made me like Sam even more in this. I have come along with the way I feel about Sam and even tough I?m worried about where he is headed I am liking this new competent Sam ?. And him taking over the carer role has always gotten my support. I LOVE IT!!! And Dean looking and acting like a little boy ? *dies again. I know its insane but I really think I am in love with this man lol*

Anyways back to the point at hand. In the room. Dean reading about Ghost sickness. Those words shining out at him hit me a littler hard and made me want to hold him because Dean always puts on this tough façade. It?s very much Dean and now with this hell business (whatever he remembers)  I fear for how he must feel or will feel when he remembers everything. Ohh and I knew the clock was going to meet its end lol

?I don?t wanna be a clue.? Awwwww

Even just the look on Dean?s face when they pulled up at the Lumber Mill had me wanting to hide him away from anything that could hurt him.

?I?ll man the flashlight.? With that smile on his face, that little boy smile *more giggles*

And OMG the screaming lmao made even funny with his ?That was scary? lol Ohh I love this guy. Again all of us couldn?t stop laughing (again My Nan and Matt stuck around to watch with us.) And wow you know it?s serious when Dean leaves Sam like that and the poor baby skulling his whiskey *hugs him*

I have been hanging and hanging to see Dean drunk. Ever since ?Playthings? and we got to see Sam drunk (which was adorable) I have been hanging to see it and how adorable is he swaying and looking at his hand like its an anomaly and calling the deputy awesome heehhee Drunk!Dean is cute.

The next scene I?ve already mention so you know what I think of it. I just loved him taking the cues from Sam for a change. For four seasons Dean has been the lead in a hunt (for the most part) so seeing him take a back seat and follow his brothers lead was really awesome because Sam is so capable now and it nice to know the kid can do that when Dean really needs him to.

I am in love with the speech after seeing Luther?s brother. He still came across to me like a little boy and I love how everything was laid out in the open like that and I like that by Dean having a (comedic, come on it was lol) meltdown like that let us hear what we all write about. We know it happens we know Dean listens to the same stuff and sings along annoyingly and that they must drive each other crazy with how much time they spend together but it was nice for that to be put out there in a non obvious way if that even makes sense. And when he told Sam he was gassy? The season two gag reel came to mind with Sam farting in the van hehe

God the look on his face when Sam walked into the motel room and Dean admitted he?d ran the whole way back I was starting to really feel sorry for him. I mean he was still cute and funny and adorable but he just had this helpless little boy look on his face, looking at his brother for answers that I really felt sorry for him and wanted to just bundle him up and this ????

?I?m gonna die, Sammy.? BIG AWWWWW the way he said that broke me. I swear he?s the only guy in television that can totally break me with just four words or a simple look on his face or a flicker of his eyes and he does it so well every single freaking time. If anyone should be blamed for me being so totally obsessed with the show it is Jensen Ackles. That man is absolutely freaking amazing.

Wow Sammy with yellow eyes. How freaky. This whole seen was intense. The calm way Sam stated that it was about time Dean went back to hell had my breath caught in my throat. I have to give credit to the little brother too. Jared Padalecki has really come into his own. He does an amazing job and this really stands out for me and I have to say as much as I like Darker Sammy? I breaks my heart a little to see him evil by choice. I know Dean can save him ? he can!!! I might not know where my faith is for the man upstairs but I have total and 100% faith in Dean Winchester. Sad, I know, huh? lol

The way Dean whimpered and tossed his head when evil Sammy put his hand on his chest *dies again* This is Dean?s worst nightmare and he has been carrying it around for a very long time. An god, I love hearing Sam shout Dean?s name like that. When Dean came out of the delusion I was able to start breathing again. I would have loved to see that scene from Sammy?s POV.

Enter Bobby!!!! YAY!!!! I LOVE and ADORE this man and wow he speaks Japanese and considering the amount of Japanese lore there is out there it should have come as a surprise but him showing off is too cute.

I laughed that Dean was watching Gumby and that it was Pokey that got lassoed considering Dean called himself Pokey in ?The kids are alright? and Dean flinched that that part too ? cute ?Oh that?s not helping.? *loves him* The phone call with Sam was amusing. Sam telling Dean that have a great plan and straight as he hangs up Bobby tells him the plan is terrible. Have I mentioned how much I love Bobby yet?

Dean?s mixed feelings fear and horror at watching the sheriff die broke me a little more. I swear that mans facial expressions will kill me. How does he do it?

I was giggling at Sam crawling to the gun a couple times only to get pulled back. It was cute and then his little laugh at Luther before he was slammed into the ground a few times *ouch* ?Bobby, punch it!? I love that line?. Doesn?t Anakin say that in Star Wars at one point? Or am I delusional too? Well obviously he doesn?t say ?Bobby? lol

Dean actually clutching the Bible ? wow. It came as a shock and I still don?t know whether I would personally put my faith in the man upstairs but that was something big and Lilith? That little girl is a damn awesome little actress coz damn is she creepy. She does an amazing job and now we know Lilith was down there with him. God my heart cries for this man. Just the enormity of going to hell stops my breath. 4 months is like 40 years ?. My poor, poor boy *hugs him tight* I want to know what went on down there. I want to see something, or hear him talk about it or something. There is so much to work with here and I loved the prospects of it when I first entertained the idea of Dean going to hell and towards the end seeing how deathly afraid he was I was starting to backtrack ? I didn?t want him to go simply because ? well its hell but now that they did go there I wanna know. I have a sick disease but I know I?m not alone in this lol She says Dean remembers. I know this lilith was just a hallucination but I don?t know whether he does or doesn?t remember everything like she said but maybe its all in there somewhere and his mind is protecting itself. I?m sure something will break the memories free eventually and I?m going to be holding on tight for this emotional rollercoaster that Supernatural/Dean Winchester/Jensen Ackles is.

On a totally random note? How green are that boys eyes *happy sigh*

The end scene. The best!!! The teasing? Awww seriously? That?s what makes this show. It?s the familiar/family type banter, how comfortable they are with each other that teasing just comes natural and no-0ne is truly offended. That is the best thing about being in a family and what makes this even better in THIS show? It comes across so natural with the actors too. It makes this show feel all the more real an probably enables my obsession (I know its not real. I?m not that crazy yet. But you get what I mean right?? It reminds me of a quote I read from Jared today ??

In short this episode pulled everything from me that make me love the show. I was laughing and holding my breath and my heart was breaking all in the right moments and I truly do love all of these guys. Jensen, Jared and Jim. I love them all. They are in my house every week (I wish) and I almost can?t remember a time when they weren?t hehe

The extra at the end? *laughs and laughs and laughs* Jensen Ackles you are the most amazing human being EVER. I have watched that over and over and over and over and Jared?s laughing and cheering in the background makes me laugh even harder. These boys would have to be the best stress reliever ever. Even though I have been run ragged over the last few weeks they always put a smile on my face without fail and I think I simply love that we get to see these little things. That was a really good reward and almost makes you feel part of the supernatural family yourself when we see so many glimpses into their antics and days on set with interviews and stuff. This is the best show I have seen in a long, long time. And on another note, same subject. Did you all see that boy move????? In those little moments there when he was really grooving and his whole body was moving *mouth goes dry* I think I would drop dead if I saw him really dancing. That smile at the end was priceless too. He gets that shy smile that just makes me love him even more ? okay this wasn?t going to be too long after how long it took me to get the time to write it but they drive me insane and I cant help but ramble and ramble ? I?ll shut up now.

I hope everyone had a great weekend. We have run out of downloads for this months so this weeks ep will probably take forever to download *cries*think of me when your watching lol